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46. A hill to die on

November 19, 2017

Glamour WOTY

Hi hi hi. I had a lot going on this week! ICYMI, here’s my recap of my question for Joe Biden earlier this week. Here’s what else I was up to…


White Sheets Are The Way, The Truth, And The Light

21 Legitimately Great Gifts To Give Your Boyfriend, Husband, Brother, Or Dad

23 Workplace Horror Stories That’ll Make You Say “WTAF?????”


The Uncounted, The New York Times.

The myth of the male bumbler, The Baffler. “We need to shed the exculpatory scripts that have mysteriously enabled all these incompetent bumblers to become rich, successful, and admired even as they maintain that they’re moral infants. … Allow me to make a controversial proposition: Men are every bit as sneaky and calculating and venomous as women are widely suspected to be.”

Men Don’t Get to Decide What Counts As ‘Sex’, The Cut. “Taking your clothes off in front of that 14-year-old girl and forcing her to touch you is not sex. But why do we continue to have to explain this? Why do men who have never experienced this form of attack get to define what an attack is?”

Rebecca Solnit: Let This Flood of Women’s Stories Never Cease, LitHub. “So many women who told stories about men trying to harm them were treated as crazy or as malicious liars, because it’s easier to throw a woman under the bus than a culture.”

The Digital Ruins of a Forgotten Future, The Atlantic.

How the Pioneer Woman Is Single-Handedly Saving a Small Oklahoma Town, Thrillist.

When Dentists Criticize This Online Braces Company, It Takes Them To Court, BuzzFeed.

We Received $95,000 Worth of Free Stuff in Six Months, Racked. This is so good; I wish PR companies realized how much literal garbage media orgs are sent, and how much extra work they create for not just editors, but also for our mailroom employees.

How a DIY YouTuber became the target of a sexist conspiracy theory, The Outline.

The Forgotten Lifestyle Star Who Taught Women of the 1930s How to ‘Live Alone and Like It’, Jezebel.

Where is all the good affordable furniture?, Curbed.

This American comfort food leads a double life – but only some of us know the secret. Do you?, The Charlotte Observer.

Why Don’t We Eat Turkey Tails?, Smithsonian Mag.

Barstool Sports and the Identity Politics of Being Apolitical, MEL Magazine. “All of this is uncomfortable to most sports fans, many of whom resent racial politics from infringing upon their enjoyment of NFL games, and some who view the protests as deeply offensive to the American military. For them, Barstool provides a haven from the endless back and forth over the meaning and efficacy of the anthem protests. And the NFL’s lingering domestic abuse problem. And concussions. And the inclusion of transgender people in sports. And college players being exploited by the NCAA. And the myriad other sports issues that involve larger social context.”

Amazon’s Last Mile, Gizmodo.

The Joy of Not Wearing a Bra, The New Yorker. “I always wondered about the stigma associated with taking one’s bra off. Is the problem that the bosomy braless woman—breasts swaying, nipples pointed—is too sexy? Or is it that she isn’t sexy enough—that, without propping, her breasts are egregiously unround, wilted, differently sized? I suspect that she isn’t the right kind of sexy, which is to say that she isn’t contained. She isn’t fighting desperately against gravity. She would appear to be a critical consumer. Part of being the right kind of sexy lies in wanting to be the right kind of sexy, and in buying things to make it so.”

The World’s Most Famous Actor Whose Face You’ve Probably Never Seen, BuzzFeed.

Meet the Female Firefighter Whose Side Hustle Is Getting More Women on the Job, Glamour. Sarinya Srisakul is the first Asian-American woman in the NYFD. The first one. THE FIRST ONE!!!!!!!!!!!

Do Yourself a Favor This Year, and Just Buy the Keg, The Kitchn.

‘Get Off Your Ass and Talk to People Face-to-Face’ and other tips for improving your emotional intelligence, MEL Magazine.

Hims Is Basically Glossier for Dudes, Racked.

A Holiday Survival Guide for Sad People, Pinch of Yum. “Light a candle. I fully embrace the cheesiness – there is something just so magical about a flame. Since it gets dark so early now, every night I come home from work and I light a candle. It feels special and sacred and spiritual, and I don’t need to explain anything to anyone.”

The week ahead…

Hoping that the cold I caught runs its course ASAP!!!! 

On Joe Biden

November 19, 2017

This week, I took my “repeal the patriarchy and white supremacy” show on the road! Since Joe Biden’s answer to a question I asked him made the news (also here), I wanted to share a bit more of the context.

Last Monday, I attended Glamour’s first-ever Women of the Year Summit. I attended the Women of the Year Awards in 2015 and it was an incredibly powerful and moving experience — truly, one of the highlights of my year. The WOTY Awards is held in a big theater in front of a large audience, but this year, they added a new event, the summit, which was smaller (about 300-400 people). It was a series of panels and talks featuring truly remarkable women and I was so, so thrilled to be in attendance.

The program said that the last panel of the morning before lunch would be Glamour EIC Cindi Leive in conversation with “surprise guests.” As it got closer, I thought that perhaps it would be HRC, especially because we kicked off the day with Chelsea. (Also, the security that morning had been surprisingly intense, which I didn’t think much of it until later.) Dallas guessed Michelle Obama. It turned out to be the Bidens. Which…fine! Cool!

I probably wouldn’t have felt so compelled to say something if Joe hadn’t spent so much time talking up his record on women. Look, he has done good, important things for women, and I’m all for tooting your own horn (OBVIOUSLY), but there was something about a white man coming into a room full of women and just sort of accomplishment-dropping (“When I wrote that legislation…”) to provide evidence of his wokeness that really rubbed me the wrong way. Also, I found him smug and just…pandering. I’m sorry, but saying things like “There’s not a single thing a man can do that a woman can’t” (to applause, of course) and openly adoring and supporting his career-woman wife is…pretty basic-ass shit. You know? Like, it’s easy to forget that in the year 2017, when there’s an unabashed misogynist and racist leading the country and we live in hell. But, sorry…Joe Biden ain’t special. (Even Dr. Biden says at one point, “We already knew that, Joe.”) Like, great job being a PERSON, Joe Biden. You don’t get a cookie for BEING A PERSON.

Anyway, the thing that really made me say “OK, but also…no,” is when the topic of Harvey Weinstein came up and Cindi said something to the effect of “What do you think of the argument that these men came from a different time, that they are old dinosaurs?” and Biden got out his soapbox and called bullshit on that. Which: great! It is bullshit! But as he went on to say that he’s from that same time, and his dad (also from a different time) raised him to know better, I just thought, But that’s probably the exact same defense he’d use if ever called to answer for his own behavior. And between that and him talking about how brave all the women who have come forward are and how “we have to change the culture,” all I could think about was Anita Hill.

And I couldn’t think about anything else.

I was texting my friend Sally with updates from the Summit throughout the day, and as I was having these thoughts, she texted me something like, “Ok but also….Anita Hill” and I was like, “Right???? THANK YOU.” So I was like, Ok, if they do a Q&A for this panel — which seemed HIGHLY UNLIKELY — I’ll try to get the mic and ask him about her. A few minutes later, I was looking down, taking notes, when Cindi said that she’d take a few questions at the end, and my head JERKED up. (I’m pretty sure everyone around me noticed.) Still, though, I knew that getting a mic was a long shot.

Aside from worrying about whether or not I’d be able to bring up Anita Hill, I was also debating whether or not it would really be appropriate for me to say something. After all, the Bidens were basically the guests of honor, and Cindi wasn’t interviewing them like a reporter. (Which: fine!) So I was sitting there asking myself whether or not the question I wanted to ask would be, essentially, rude. But then I thought, Well, the “rude” question would actually be “So hey, are you going to stop being kiiiiinda awfully handsy with women during photo ops?” so everyone should be happy I’m sticking to something a little easier. I also just kept thinking about two things women have said recently: “You can’t get away with this shit anymore.” And, “But what’s the alternative? To approve? I do not approve.”


And as I weighed my options, I thought back to all of the panels from the morning, and I was kind of like, If anyone thinks this is inappropriate, I can quote back several amazing women who told us to be brave and fearless and to get in formation. To ask a serious question felt like it would be acting in the spirit of the summit. And as I considered the possibility of things going badly, I thought, Well, if there’s a hill worth dying on, Anita Hill is it.

To be clear, I do not expect a long life in public service to be without mistakes or growth, nor am I asking for purity from Democrats (though anyone who thinks reproductive justice is negotiable or that “identity politics” is real/a problem can kiss black ass). But I have zero patience for people who are incapable of a genuine apology, or who refuse to have a real, non-defensive reckoning with their own failings. And the more Biden talked, the angrier I felt.

So once the production people with mics sort of dispersed and the first audience member was asking her question, I, like, looked around until I spotted another production person holding a mic and basically communicated “I’mma need that mic” and she nodded at me and moved into position at the end of my row with it. (That was actually the scariest part for me — like, aggressively claiming a mic outside of the designated “now is when we raise our hands and ask to be called on” time. It felt impolite.)

So I got the mic and I stood up and said to Joe Biden, “My name’s Rachel Miller and my question is for the former vice president. In the context of changing the culture and women being brave enough to come forward [which he’d also said], I’m wondering if there’s anything that you would do differently with regards to Anita Hill if given the opportunity.”

And he said, “No.”


And then he said, “Let’s get something straight here.”

Which — sure, is a thing an old white man can say to a black woman asking him a question at a women’s event about the shameful treatment of a black woman on a national stage. He is certainly allowed to say that, if he wants to. 


Biden then went on to say a lot more words, but what he was really saying was, “I’m a good guy, I’m a good guy, I’m a good guy.” (The entire event was live streamed, and you can see the Bidens’ panel here; my question is at 25:53.) And here’s the thing: I have had eerily similar versions of this exact conversation several times over the past six weeks, and I am sick to goddamn death of men who have demonstrably not always been good guys immediately jumping in to defend themselves and tell me that I’m wrong — that they ARE, in fact, good (GREAT, even!!!), and I just don’t get it. They get emotional, they get belligerent, they get nasty as they try to get me to listen to the story of that one thing they did for a woman, like, three years ago. And they do this instead of, I don’t know, being introspective for one fucking second, and considering that maybe they are wrong. Maybe they aren’t great. Maybe they aren’t good. Maybe they aren’t that brave, maybe they didn’t always do everything they could have done, maybe they ignored certain things because they were ignorant or cowards or lazy or, hell, because “it was a different time.” But instead of pausing and thinking about how he could have done more, Biden, like so many other men, looked me dead in the eye and just said, “No.” No, I couldn’t have done more. No, I will not consider that I’m anything other than a good guy. I’m the hero of this story. Has no one told you that I’m the hero?

He ended his response with, “What I do feel badly about is the bad taste that got left in the mouth of some of the people around Anita Hill.”

Again: OK, but also…NO. 

After he finished speaking, I fully expected Cindi to accept his answer and pivot back to softball questions. (Which: fine! I know how this works.) But that’s not what happened. And this was actually kind of the best part for me. Cindi didn’t just let his narrative stand. She said, “If I can just follow up on that for one second…Professor Hill has said herself that she expected a fair process and did not feel that she had one. Do you, given your leadership on these kinds of issues, have any kind of message to her now?”

And Biden said, “Well, my message, which I’ve delivered before [translation: Why are you wasting my time with this?] is that I am so sorry if she believed that.”

I am so sorry if she believed that.

I am so sorry IF she believed that.

And then he followed it up with, “I feel really badly she didn’t feel like the process worked.”

I’m sorry if. I feel badly that she felt.

And then, for good measure, he finished it up with a little bit more about how he was the hero. He talked about “the shouting matches I had with those witnesses who were attacking her” and then finished with, “I said something at the time that proved to be right. I said this is going to be the start of a fundamental change of what constitutes harassment in the workplace, and people are gonna begin to change.”

I said something at the time that proved to be right.

I just…what a gross thing to say here. “I said something at the time that proved to be right.” It’s not really surprising, but that smug-ass delivery was still enraging. 


Later that night, at the WOTY Awards, there were a lot of surprise appearances, including when Jodi Kantor and Megan Twohy — the journalists who broke the Weinstein story — dropped in and talked about #MeToo, and then said that four survivors of sexual harassment who told their stories in the name of justice would be joining them on stage. And then the name “Anita Hill” appeared in huge letters on the screen and I blurted out, “Oh, holy shit,” and then started crying for like the dozenth time that day. (Watch the video here.) It was really incredible, seeing her there and listening to her speak. (Especially right after seeing Zendaya give Maxine Waters a Lifetime Achievement Award.)

“I saw that we had a chance to shift this narrative,” Hill said on stage. And to that in particular, I hope we can all look back someday and say, “Me too.”

45. These stories are true

November 12, 2017

This week, the world felt more capitalist dystopia than ever before. Like, we’re here, guys. We made it!!

Here’s what else I had going on.


Please Stop What You’re Doing And Read This Failed Restaurateur’s Batshit Story

This Modern Home Ec Book Will Stop People From Asking, “You Live Like This???”


Harvey Weinstein’s Army of Spies, The New Yorker.

Angus Johnston on Louis C.K.’s apology.

Brave Enough to Be Angry, The New York Times. “Like every other feminist with a public platform, I am perpetually cast as a disapproving scold. But what’s the alternative? To approve? I do not approve.” I want to tattoo “I do not approve” on my body.

“Do not trust men who love guns.”

How to Hire Fake Friends and Family, The Atlantic. I cannot stop thinking about this article. It takes a turn from “oh my god” to “oh…my GOD.” Like, we are living in a goddamn episode of Black Mirror.

Where do kids learn to undervalue women? From their parents., The Washington Post. In studies, these young men and women predominantly report hope for a future in which they will split the pleasures of breadwinning and caretaking equally with their spouses — what researchers call their Plan A. But when asked for a Plan B, the sexes divide. The men anticipate being primary breadwinners alongside wives who are primarily caretakers. The women anticipate divorce. This conflict is not a road map toward any kind of meaningfully connected life.”

Dustin Hoffman Sexually Harassed Me When I Was 17, The Hollywood Reporter. This is a couple weeks old but I just read it and…Jesus Christ.

Former Vogue editor Alexandra Shulman: ‘I find the idea that there was a posh cabal offensive’, The Guardian. This hed really undersells the fact that this woman is just really fucking ignorant and racist.

Here’s All The B.S. About Weight Loss You Should Stop Believing, BuzzFeed.

Crystals, Puppies, Sparkles, Rainbows, and Rage: Aidy Bryant of Saturday Night Live talks comedy and style, The Cut.

Johnstown Never Believed Trump Would Help. They Still Love Him Anyway., Politico. “‘Everybody I talk to,’ he said, ‘realizes it’s not Trump who’s dragging his feet. Trump’s probably the most diligent, hardest-working president we’ve ever had in our lifetimes. It’s not like he sleeps in till noon and goes golfing every weekend, like the last president did.” I am realllllllly not a fan of this type of profile of Trump supporters, but you should read this one all the way through to get a sense of what we’re up against.

Can My Children Be Friends With White People?, The New York Times.

Teen Girl Posed For 8 Years As Married Man To Write About Baseball And Harass Women, Deadspin.

How the ‘Shalane Flanagan Effect’ Works, The New York Times. “Every single one of her training partners — 11 women in total — has made it to the Olympics while training with her, an extraordinary feat. Call it the Shalane Effect: You serve as a rocket booster for the careers of the women who work alongside you, while catapulting forward yourself.”

Listen to ‘The Daily’: Was Iowa Killing a Hate Crime?. This was a really hard episode to get through.

The Forgotten Art of Squatting, Quartzy.

The War To Sell You A Mattress Is An Internet Nightmare, Fast Company. I don’t think I shared it when I first read it, but it’s pretty wild.

A Beautifully Simple Chicago Apartment, A Cup of Jo.

10 things i say to preschoolers slash grown-ass men, KatyKatiKate. “I don’t know where your shoe is. It’s yours. Where did you put it?”


Contouring 101 (“Makeup is for women who want husbands. Contouring is for women who want to leach the souls of their dead lovers and collect the inheritance of their ex-boyfriends who disappeared under mysterious circumstances.”); this seagull (watch with sound on!); and everything from Hearth & Hand.

Best life

I can’t stop evangelizing this pasta and chickpeas recipe! It’s simple, cheap, comes together easily (my advice: chop/measure out everything in advance because it moves pretty quickly), and is SO DELICIOUS AND FEELS FANCY! PS If you’re tempted to skip the finishing oil, don’t — that’s where most of the flavor is.

Also, I finally bought Smartwool socks and I feel like other socks have been lying to me my entire life.

The week ahead…

Rejoicing in this sweater weather!

44. Obligations

November 5, 2017

Millennial killer & victims costume

Photo: Taylor Miller

I…can’t believe Halloween was this week. (My team went as a killer Millennial and his victims. Also, all of my reports are ~100~ and I just adore them.) I just…so much is happening!

Here’s what else I was up to…


This $11 Candle From Target Smells Just Like The $30 Anthropologie One

ICYMI: I shared my pumpkin butterscotch cookie recipe.


I finished Home Comforts! (Well, to be honest, I skimmed several sections — it’s essentially an encyclopedia and some of it is really dense/not particularly relevant to me right now.) Anyway, it’s a great reference book and a good all-around read; it legit left me feeling very inspired.


Ask Polly: ‘I Hate Men.’, NY Mag. “For your personal emotional health and resilience as a woman, you must choose to view the world of men through a new Cranky Old Bitch filter. Through this filter it soon becomes clear that men are simply too pathetic to waste your giant brain contemplating for too long. Sure, they lord their power over us, they cast their dismissive eyes on us, they attempt to jack off in front of us because they are sad deluded animals who always need a new fix to feel like more than nothing. It’s gross and it’s sometimes litigable but it’s also just hilariously unevolved. Imagine, the desperation of living that way! And sure, they might fire you if they catch wind of your total lack of respect for the way they operate. Many of them are in charge. What a hilarious irony, right? I mean you at least have to admire their tenacity. In spite of countless obvious deficits, they STILL find a way to stay on top.” P R E A C H.

The Reckoning Always Comes, Deadspin. “There are too many men out there who think if they can’t be bad men, they can’t be men at all.”

How Men Elevate, and Women Ruin Food, Taste. “But the central critique of women-driven food trends is that women are getting food wrong. Things that are supposed to be complex, like wine, are vilified for being simple (never mind that the majority of wine drinkers are women), while foods like cupcakes and froyo pander to people who have no taste. And let’s not forget that women also needlessly complicate food that is ‘supposed’ to be simple—why drink coffee when you can have a half-caf double caramel soy macchiato instead? Men can obsess over every aspect of procuring, drying, and grilling a steak, but women are the high-maintenance ones for arranging a beautiful smoothie bowl. … If a man is fussy about craft beer or protein shakes, it’s food that should be fussed over. If a man requires nothing more than meat, potatoes, and a Budweiser, neither should anyone else.” This is so, so good.

America is facing an epistemic crisis, Vox.

Harvey Weinstein and the Power of Celebrity Exceptionalism, The Atlantic.

Ta-Nehisi Coates on Robert E. Lee and John Kelly.

I’m your mentor, not your mother, Science.

Former ‘Male Feminist’ Columnist Faces Multiple Allegations of Assault, Jezebel. (Note: this is a pretty intense read.)

Modest Dressing, as a Virtue, The New York Times Style Magazine.

NYC strippers strike: Dancers say nearly naked ‘bottle girls’ are grabbing their cash, cite racism, Washington Post.

The Fable of Aesop’s Hand Soap, Racked.

Inside the Joyfully Deranged Kitchen of Amy Sedaris, Eater.

9 Books That Taught Me All Of The Random Shit I Know, BuzzFeed.


This episode of Vox’s podcast The Impact, this puppy, this (very) short story, and his Royal Flatness, Mexican burrowing toad.

Best life

I’m preparing for the coming frost! I ordered these flannel sheets (The Sweethome’s budget pick) and this blanket. I also ordered some new bath towels and hand towels, but I’m really psyched about the sheets — my first flannel sheets as an adult! I just feel like the all-white will be so pretty and cozy.

In other news, these garlic knots look delicious. 

The week ahead…

Trying to cook more and work out more (so, like…at all). I can’t get over how quickly this month is going to go! 

43. All the rage

October 29, 2017


‘Sup, witches? Here’s what I had going on this week…


Neti Pots Are Low-Key Awful, But Honestly, You Should Get One

If You Secretly Kinda Hate Brushing Your Teeth, Try This Fancy Toothpaste


When Staying in the Trump Administration Is Worse than Leaving It, Highline. This is really, really good.

Our National Narratives Are Still Being Shaped by Lecherous, Powerful Men, The Cut. “We can’t go back in time and have the story of Hillary Clinton written by people who have not been accused of pressing their erections into the shoulders of young women who worked for them.”

Harvey Weinstein: how lawyers kept a lid on sexual harassment claims, Financial Times. “I want to publicly break my non-disclosure agreement. Unless somebody does this there won’t be a debate about how egregious these agreements are and the amount of duress that victims are put under. My entire world fell in because I thought the law was there to protect those who abided by it. I discovered that it had nothing to do with right and wrong and everything to do with money and power.”

Weighing the Costs of Speaking Out About Harvey Weinstein, The New Yorker.

Harvey Weinstein and the Economics of Consent, The Atlantic. “The things that happen in hotel rooms and board rooms all over the world (and in every industry) between women seeking employment or trying to keep employment and men holding the power to grant it or take it away exist in a gray zone where words like “consent” cannot fully capture the complexity of the encounter. Because consent is a function of power. You have to have a modicum of power to give it.”

How These Two Women Finally Exposed Harvey Weinstein, Marie Claire.

YouTube Trumpkin and Former Milo Intern Kills His Own Dad for Calling Him a Nazi, The Daily Beast.
My Failed Attempt at Illness-Chic, Racked. “I bought the caftans seeking an aesthetic of grace — soft, flowing, dignified — but what I was actually after was Grace itself. I wanted a way to grant my body and mind what I no longer believed they deserved: a pardon.”

The War To Sell You A Mattress Is An Internet Nightmare, Fast Company.

You Should All Be Ashamed of Yourselves, Splinter.

Why Is Getting Ready For Bed SO EXHAUSTING?, BuzzFeed.

12 Admissible Facts About Judge Judy, Mental Floss.

How to Talk to Women if You Believe Feminism Has Made It Really Hard to Know What Counts as ‘Harassment’, VSB. “And now we have roaming gaggles of men neutered by social progress and emasculated by consent, who see colleagues in fitted pantsuits and with exposed wrists and get panic attacks and live terrified that merely saying ‘Hi’ might get a call from human resources. Fortunately, if you happen to be one of these men, you’ve come to the right place! If you are a grown-ass human male adult and you still, after decades of existing on earth—breathing oxygen and eating Fritos and shit—haven’t yet figured out how to interact with women without being a creep, and you long for the days when gotdamn fucking feminism didn’t make expressing romantic interest at happy hour or grabbing a random boob on an escalator so damn perplexing, I have great news for you.” This had me cackling.

10 Scary Stories to Fuck You Up at Night, Jezebel.

Don’t Put Your Keys Between Your Fingers for Self-Defense, Lifehacker.

Yiiiiikes: I (F35) threw away old photos of my husband (M44) with his late wife years ago. He just found out and hates me for it.

Autostraddle Feelings Atrium: Sara Ramirez In This Suit And Suspenders With A Pocket Chain Around Your Heart, Autostraddle.

19 Things That Will Make Every Kind-Of Adult Say, “Oh Shit, That’s Me”, BuzzFeed.

I also read a bunch more of Home Comforts: The Art and Science of Keeping House (and then cleaned the fuck out of everything). And I can’t stop thinking about this short story: “They’re made out of meat.”

Best life

I’m obsessed with these $5 rubber gloves. I got a pair for the bathroom and a pair for the kitchen and I love them.

The week ahead…

It’s almost Halloween! Per usual, I expended all my Halloween energy in late September and now I deeply don’t care. *shrug*

42. He said, we said

October 22, 2017

me too — @alannabean

Photo and embroidery: my friend Alanna

This week was rough. In multiple areas of my life, I was dealing with men who know how to talk but not listen; whose lack of emotional intelligence and basic empathy is genuinely stunning; who have spent decades being rewarded for being appallingly average (and then turning around and rewarding others like themselves); and who are just shitty. I was also surrounded by so many women who are overwhelmingly, shockingly, infuriatingly better at this whole “being an adult person in society” thing…and yet have to fight to be taken seriously, to be believed, to be respected, to be cared about. Meanwhile, the still-pervasive idea that women are “too emotional” while men can be trusted to remain rational and in control at all times is so demonstrably false, it’s almost laughable…except, you know, the part where it’s our fucking bodies and livelihoods and dignity and time — God, so much fucking time!!!! — at stake. Watching so many smart, competent, kind, thoughtful women be repeatedly disappointed and disrespected by men who are so grossly mediocre and maladjusted, who trade mainly in bullshit and bad faith, and who just don’t fucking get it is not good for the soul. I am tired, and I assume you are too.

Here’s what else I’ve got:


The Pretty Little Bookmarks That Can Actually Withstand The Trauma Of Your Backpack

Just 17 Tweets That’ll Make Women Lolsob


Here’s What My Parents’ 1974 Wedding Would Cost In 2017 Dollars

Um, Disneyland’s Opening Day In 1955 Sounds Like It Was A Dystopian Hell

If You Drink Any Kind Of Liquid At Your Desk, You Should Buy This Tumbler


Yes, This Is a Witch Hunt. I’m a Witch and I’m Hunting You., The New York Times.

Why Would This Time Be Any Different?, Deadspin. “For too long, men have considered sexual and other gendered violence to be the problem of women. It is a problem for all of us to solve. Yet men have gone on, frowning and furrowing their brows. They are doing it now. They give it the old How horrible, I agree it is horrible and go about their days. For women, this often is our day. This is a constant. We live with the unceasing fear of what a man is capable of. We know that it’s not convenient; we know that the urge to prey on women does not discriminate by how a man presents to the world otherwise, and especially the men around him. It’s time for this to get inconvenient for men—for, perhaps, you. It’s time for them—you—to sit with this issue, not just for a day or two, but as part of your life.”

‘Grey’s Anatomy’ Showrunner on Harassment in Hollywood: “It’s Not Just Harvey” (Guest Column), The Hollywood Reporter. “We work within this culture so that we can amass some power so that we can have a voice.”

The Conversation We Should Be Having, The Cut.

20 Things Men Can Do RTFN to Support Women, Beyond Just Literally Ceasing to Sexually Harass Us, Helen Rosner on Medium.

How to Listen to Women When They Share Their Stories of Sexual Assault, MEL Magazine. “From the time we’re little girls, we’re taught to behave, be quiet and not to make a fuss. If I fought every man who touched me while I was waitressing or grabbed me on a bus or at a bar, I’d be dead from exhaustion. We pick our battles — daily — and so when a nasty woman does rise up and make a ruckus, don’t be surprised when it unleashes decades of suppressed rage on behalf of women everywhere.”

Why I Defended, Supported & Enabled Bad Men, Bustle.

Hey Hollywood, Don’t Forget David O. Russell Is An Abusive Jerk, Pajiba. For crying out fucking loud.

Men of the world: You are not the weather, The Washington Post.

Lupita Nyong’o: Speaking Out About Harvey Weinstein, The New York Times. “I was part of a growing community of women who were secretly dealing with harassment by Harvey Weinstein. But I also did not know that there was a world in which anybody would care about my experience with him.”

Men’s “Cluelessness” and the Rape Culture, Shakesville.

Women have always tried to warn each other about dangerous men. We have to., The Washington Post.

What We Know About the Niger Attack That Left 4 U.S. Soldiers Dead, NY Mag. More plainly explained in this Twitter thread.

Inside a Secretive Group Where Women Are Branded, The New York Times.

California Restaurant Admits It’s Been Serving Popeyes Chicken for Months, Vice.

How a Gilded-Age Heiress Became the ‘Mother of Forensic Science’, The Atlantic.

In Texas, Homecoming Mums Are a Team Effort, Racked.

A Catfishing With a Happy Ending, The Atlantic. This story is wild.

Rose Totino, Patron Genius of Frozen Pizza, Mental Floss.

These Tights Are Still Perfect After Nine Years Of Wear, BuzzFeed.


The October 18th episode of The Daily was really, really good.

Related: I loved listening to Michael Barbaro on the Longform podcast.

You can also hear me talking about journaling on Stuff Mom Never Told You/a>.

And this linguist talking about 45 is amazing.

Best life

I spotted this bookHome Comforts: The Art and Science of Keeping House — in my new friend Alyce’s home — she of the amazing rug I mentioned last week — and then she actually recommended it, so I was instantly like, Yes, sold. After it arrived on Friday, I immediately bought the Kindle version so I could casually read it on the train. (The softcover is a legitimately beautiful book and I’m glad I bought it, but it’s 896 pages.) Anyway, IT IS SO GOOD, YOU GUYS. I highlighted like 75& of the first chapter. The author — a Harvard-educated lawyer — is the perfect amount of bossy/extra, and just, like, deeply wants us all to have clean homes that we feel good in. Also, I’m learning so much from it!!! And it’s legitimately inspiring me to come up with a new cleaning schedule, and to give some things I’ve been neglecting more attention. It’s just great.

I also bought these hipster millennial pads based mostly on their beautiful packaging and I’m not even sorry.

Oh, and Dallas started a new thing where each day, at the end of the day, we share three positive things with each other. It helps a tiny bit!

The week ahead…

Rage-cleaning, probably.

41. So much

October 15, 2017

Photo: Taylor Miller / BuzzFeed

Photo: Taylor Miller / BuzzFeed

God, this week was SO MUCH. I headed down to DC on Wednesday morning for a long weekend. Sometimes it’s just nice to watch the world burn with the friends you’ve known for more than a decade, you know? I attended Julia’s Ladies Article Club for the second time, which was such a treat, along with her third annual Oktoberfest party, where there were some good babies and some great dogs. And when I wasn’t making apple cider sangria/screaming into the void about all the things that shitty men were doing, I was publishing my big Halloween posts! It was all just so much.


17 Clever Halloween Costumes For Anyone With A Prime Account And A Dream

This $17 Dress From Amazon Is The Stuff Group-Costume Dreams Are Made Of

Here’s How To Make A SpOoOoOkY Haunted Playhouse For Kids

17 Photos That’ll Make You Say “It Me”


First, here’s everything I read about Harvey Weinstein and shitty media men this week.


Non-Compete Clause, The Baffler. “You can’t blame men for wanting women to keep on competing with one another exclusively. Late capitalism is still a zero-sum game, and men who suspect their own mediocrity have every reason to fear that they’d be fucked if women and girls ever started competing with them for real.” This whole thing is fantastic.

What if the right-wing media wins?, Columbia Journalism Review. Kind of feels like they already have, TBH.

What I Don’t Tell My Students About “The Husband Stitch”, Electric Lit. (First read “The Husband Stitch,” if you haven’t already. And while we’re on the topic of Carmen Maria Machado — author of one of my favorite essays of 2017Her Body and Other Parties: Stories is next on my list of books to read. She was also recently featured on A Cup of Jo.)

I Have Been Raped by Far Nicer Men Than You, VSB.

The Protection Racket, Jezebel.

Rose Totino, Patron Genius of Frozen Pizza, Mental Floss.

A Week In Los Angeles, CA, On A $1,250,000 Joint Salary, Refinery29. This is only the second time I’ve read one of these Money Diaries and I cannot stop thinking about it.

Americans are pack rats. Swedes have the solution: ‘Death cleaning.’, Washington Post.

Reboot or Die Trying, Outside. This was one of the articles for Ladies Article Club; it’s a bit older, and I really didn’t expect to love it as much as I did!

MTV’s “TRL” Reboot Is a Spectacular Failure, Pitchfork.

We All Have a Retail Flinch Point, Racked. This is so real!

A Cake You Can Take With You Anywhere, The New York Times.

“A weird part of toxic masculinity is not knowing how to poop properly.” I gasped so loudly and so many times when I was reading these, I had to read them out loud to Julia.

Best life

This weekend, I learned that Target apparently sells great dupes of Anthropologie’s signature candles. This great-smelling Cedar & Juniper one is what started the conversation, and even though Target.com says it basically no longer exists at any store anywhere, I have gotten some intel that they do, in fact, still exist in stores. Also, according to the internet/Julia, the Island Moonlight candle is a spot-on dupe for the main one Anthro burns in their stores.

Also! Elise, who hosted Ladies Article Club, had THE most beautiful rug in her living room. (The photo online doesn’t do it justice; it looked more like this IRL, though the rows were quite slim/tidy.) It’s expensive — because all fucking rugs are fucking expensive — but dang. It was so pretty and felt like walking on a cloud. *wishlists*

The week ahead…

“all i want to do with my time on earth is make some nice things and suport some briliant people and combat institutionalized systematic evil.” Same, Jomny. Same.

40. Doing the most

October 8, 2017

Photo: @etre_cecile

God, this was a week. Who wasn’t doing the most out here? It was a lot.

Here’s what I had going on…


The $25 Purchase That’s Saving My Knees


Death at a Penn State Fraternity, The Atlantic. The last section of this is one of the most haunting things I have ever read and I don’t say that casually.

Las Vegas Shooting: Chaos at a Concert and a Frantic Search at Mandalay Bay, New York Times.

Two strangers bond over country music and beer. Then the gunshots started., The Washington Post.

‘Lone wolf’ or ‘terrorist’? How bias can shape news coverage, Poynter.

How the Elderly Lose Their Rights, The New Yorker. This is HORRIFYING.

She met John on a dating site and fell in love. But her family saw something dangerously wrong, LA Times. This five-part series on “Dirty John” is so fucking good and compelling!

Why the Harvey Weinstein Sexual-Harassment Allegations Didn’t Come Out Until Now, The Cut. “Weinstein didn’t like my question about O, there was an altercation; though the recording has alas been lost to time, I recall that he called me a cunt and declared that he was glad he was the ‘fucking sheriff of this fucking lawless piece-of-shit town.’ When my colleague Andrew (who was also then my boyfriend) intervened, first calming him down and then trying to extract an apology, Weinstein went nuclear, pushing Andrew down a set of steps inside the Tribeca Grand — knocking him over with such force that his tape recorder hit a woman, who suffered long-term injury — and dragging Andrew, in a headlock, onto Sixth Avenue.”

The FBI’s New U.S. Terrorist Threat: ‘Black Identity Extremists’, Foreign Policy.

How We Found Tom Price’s Private Jets, Politico.

My Makeup Routine Is My Morning Meditation, BuzzFeed. “Makeup tutorials are the modern-day version of Bob Ross’s The Joy of Painting, showing someone making art that I’m supposed to be inspired to replicate, but never will. Much like Bob’s wiry paintbrush scratching over canvas, a blogger blending their eyeshadow soothes me while I wait to see the end result.”

The Legion Lonely, Hazlitt. “For the outsider looking in, then, and even for the man himself, it may appear that nothing’s amiss. But to paraphrase University of Missouri researchers Barbara Bank and Suzanne Hansford, men have power, but are not well.” God, men are tragic.

Teaching Under Threat, Catapult.

Why I’ve Never Learned How to Cook, Bon Appétit.

As Goes the Middle Class, So Goes TGI Fridays, Eater.

Louis Tramunti’s Wife Thought He Was Having a Heart Attack. So Why Did the Police Break His Back?, The Daily Beast. “I’m trying to tell white people: They’re coming for you, too, bro.”

How Essential Oils Became the Cure for Our Age of Anxiety, The New Yorker.

Secrets of the South, Lenny Letter.

There’s a Scientific Explanation for Why Fires Are So Romantic, The Cut.

I Became A Mother In That Chair, Apartment Therapy.

AIM Was Perfect, and Now It Will Die, The Atlantic. “AIM showed us how to live online, for good and for ill. We all live our whole lives in text chains and group threads now. We plan every hangout, we send every news article, we proclaim every relationship in the river of text it taught us to sail. Honestly, that river has been a little scary lately. Instant messaging, once a special thrill, now sets the texture of our common life. But AIM taught us how to live online first.” This made me a little weepy, not gonna lie.

Fuck Sports Bottles, Deadspin. “Do these kids EVER remember to bring their water bottles with them? No. Of course not. No, they run to the car and then I go to close the door and what about the water bottles? Well, what about them? Who gives a shit? But no, I gotta open the door again and grab them out of the fridge and play waterboy to these people. You may as well give me one of those slotted Gatorade bottle holders they keep on an NFL sideline for me, because I am the water bitch. I gotta monitor the bottles. I gotta wash them. I gotta root past them in the fridge to reach the ham. I gotta fill them up or yell at the kids to do it. I gotta lug them everywhere. Ever lift water? Water is heavy. This is horseshit.”

Ohhhhhhh My God, This Wedding Photo, BuzzFeed.

Things More Heavily Regulated Than Buying a Gun in the United States, McSweeney’s.

Why Do So Many White People Want to Bone the American Flag?, VSB. Well?????

Listening to

This episode of The Lit Review, which features an interview Bill Ayers — listen to it, i’ll legit inspire you. And Dua Lipa and Kesha on repeat.

Best life

I love this sweater so much I bought three of them (which is a lot, even for me). Maybe soon it will be cool enough to actually wear it. Also noticed my leopard loafers were reaching the end of their life so I ordered a new pair because they are currently 50% off.

The week ahead…

Making cookies!

39. Making it

October 1, 2017

Photo: Violet Tinder

It’s decorative gourd season, motherfuckers! On Friday, I wrapped a three-day holiday project shoot; despite how physically taxing it was, it was pretty fun, and I really, really love the final product. Then I worked through the weekend, preparing for my big costume shoot on Wednesday. Aside from the fact that my whole body hurts and I’m a bit behind schedule, I feel so alive! I’m also happy to report that my new kneepads were one of the best purchases I’ve made recently! (See them on me — covered in paint — here.) Highly, highly recommend to anyone who finds him or herself crawling around on the floor/ground from time to time.

Here’s what else I was up to this week…


Remember The Guy Who “Ghosted” His GF And Then She Became His Boss? Well, There’s An Update


From Louis Armstrong to the N.F.L.: Ungrateful as the New Uppity, The New Yorker. “The wonder is not the unhinged behavior of this weekend but rather that it took Trump so long to exploit a target as rich in potential racial resentment as wealthy black athletes who have the temerity to believe in the First Amendment.”

Women Aren’t Nags—We’re Just Fed Up, Harper’s Bazaar. This is really, really good. 

Black Athletes Are Black People, And Black People Are Dying, BuzzFeed. “In some ways, sports are special in that they create a space, for a finite amount of time, where the variables can be controlled. They are fantasy. And it’s disruptive, to some people, for some groups, that even in fantasy there is oppression. They’d rather not see it. So it doesn’t exist. And when they fight it, and it still shows up, that creates a problem, because the truth is laid bare: that even in the realm of the fantastic, with millions of dollars spent and earned every minute of every game, black life in this country isn’t valued.”

I’m Out of Empathy. I’m Out of Pity. I’m Out of Patience., Esquire. “Any report about Roy Moore that doesn’t specifically refer to him as a right-wing extremist is not worth your time. No more ‘firebrand.’ No more impotent yap about his ‘controversial views.’ Roy Moore is an extremist or the word no longer has meaning.”

America Never Deserved Puerto Rico, GQ.

The NFL has officially whitewashed Colin Kaepernick’s protest, Vox. “Unity is recognizing that black players on your team have had their lives altered by systemic racism. Unity is understanding that police brutality has been an ongoing fight for black Americans since emancipation. The owners’ statements should have addressed those historical realities.”

Megyn Kelly Today Needs to Be Torn Down and Rebuilt, Vulture.

The Insidious Racism of Drugstore Beauty, Racked.

Why Cardi B’s No. 1 Matters, Pitchfork.

35 Truly Inspirational Ways You Described Your Gender Presentation On the Autostraddle Reader Survey, Autostraddle.

Michael Phelps: A Golden Shoulder to Lean On, The New York Times.

My Waking Nightmare Aboard a Startup Company’s Sleeper Bus, MEL. Honestly, I’m into this.

The Difference Between Amateurs and Professionals, Farnam Street.

It’s Time To Spend A Few Weeks Telling Yourself You Like Fall, Deadspin. “‘I like fall,’ you say, shivering ever so slightly; you have not unpacked your sweaters yet, but now you will, prompted by the low background soreness of a body that had forgotten, over those brief, bright months of joy and abundance, the need to vibrate itself at all times in order to ward off death. ‘It’s good. I am not actually mourning for warmth and light and happiness at all. I look forward to the grim retreat of all life. Gladly I trade late afternoon sunshine for the smell of mulling spices.’ That’s the spirit. Why, you can almost bring yourself to say that you missed autumn, without sobbing partway through this hilarious lie.” I disagree with this take, but this is still really good.

17 Tweets About Public Bathrooms That’ll Make You Want To Rip That Automatic Hand Dryer Off The Wall, BuzzFeed.

Everything You Know About Me, the Female Character You’re Falling in Love With in a Romantic Film/TV Show Written by a Man, McSweeney’s.

Re: Sweat Nothing’s 2018 Deodorant Scents (for Men and Women), The New Yorker. “Once again, Men’s is working with the theme ‘anxiety and/or shame about using toiletries.’ Think Corporate will be pleased with our new scents: Five Billion Erupting Volcanoes Watching N.F.L. in an Ocean of Death; I Own a Truck; Four Toolboxes Fucking; Successful C.E.O.s Doing CrossFit Around an Enormous Fire Pit for Some Reason. As I mentioned in the kitchenette yesterday while grilling my leftover bison kebabs, these products all incorporate our brand-new DangerSwipe™ technology.”

21 Tweets For Women That Are So Real It Hurts A Little, BuzzFeed. These are all SO FUNNY.

Close Your Tabs, Deadspin. BUT SERIOUSLY.

Listening to

Shannon Sharpe taking Skip (and all of us) to church, this Nancy episode about the Will & Grace reboot, and this absolutely chilling episode of The Daily.


These jade pumpkins, this video, this pink bathtub, this bird, and Panera’s hazelnut coffee. (I got it three mornings this week, don’t @ me.)

The week ahead…

Making Halloween magic!

38. Take the knee

September 24, 2017

Art by Jenny Chang

Hi again! Here’s what I’ve been up to this week…


Here’s What Sorority Recruitment Is Actually Like

How Many Of The References In “We Didn’t Start The Fire” Can You Remember?


I Didn’t Know What to Wear to My Brother’s Funeral, Racked. “Through my brother’s services, my best friends flanked me like beautiful bodyguards. We kept cracking off-color jokes about Pretty Little Liars and sneaking to the basement to kick off our shoes and take shots of Fireball while I practiced my eulogy on them. I felt like the photo negative of a bride, and they were my bridesmaids. Tits and long legs and tattoos flashed through layers of black fabric, our youth at odds with our grief.” This is one of the best essays I’ve read this year.

HGTV Is a Never-ending Fantasy Loop. Look Deeper, and It Gets Pretty Ugly., Vulture. “We are supposed to be in rehab from our housing binge of ten years ago, the one that nearly bankrupted the country. We are supposed to be in a state of contrition. But our national love of HGTV suggests that the dream won’t die. The longing it addresses is impervious to market corrections, or personal financial realities, and as economists continue to explore the true causes of the 2008 financial crisis, they are beginning to suspect that some speculative Americans acting on that longing got us into that mess as much as — or more than — unscrupulous bankers or Wall Street.”

She told people she advised Ivanka Trump. Talked about her marriages to world leaders. Promised riches. Why would anyone believe her?, The Washington Post.

DeVos Should Want to Educate Men About Rape, The New York Times.

The War on Porn Is Back, Jezebel.

Women Are Spending Years In Prison Because Wyoming Won’t Let Them Into Its All-Male Boot Camp, BuzzFeed.

Size doesn’t matter, Winnipeg Free Press. “While Good Fat Care is a health-focused website, its creators stress that the treatment of a person in a larger body should not be contingent on whether or not that person is striving for health in some way. Everyone deserves respect and care, regardless of size or behaviour.”

When Men Workshop Their Dick Pics, The Cut.

Straight Black Men Are the White People of Black People, VSB.

What You’ve Learned, The Awl. “People will struggle to keep their public facade intact regardless of their personal turmoil and trouble. If they confide in you it’s for a good reason and you need to pay attention. Simple acknowledgement will do wonders. Compassion sometimes is letting people live their lives and being witness to their struggle, not trying to fix to ease your own distress.”

The Story Behind the Greatest Internet Recipe Comment of All Time, The Cut. This. Is. So. Good.

And I’m still going between Word by Word: The Secret Life of Dictionaries and Grunt, both of which are great!

Best life

Allergy season (and cold and flu season!) is coming, so I’m trying to be proactive…I got myself a new neti pot and am planning to use it regularly (aka before things go to shit). DIY season is also coming, and last week, I had a light bulb moment and ordered myself some hardcore knee pads. I don’t know why I didn’t think of this sooner.

Also, you can donate to help those affected by Hurricane Maria here.


This 97-year-old veteran, this tweet, and this cartoon.

The week ahead…

I have a big two-day shoot this week — let’s hope those knee pads do the trick!

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